CSU Fullerton

I just applied to CSU Fullerton. I'm a little nervous and I hope I get accepted. If I get accepted then I will most likely be moving down to Fullerton this fall. I didn't have enough units so I will have to do summer school. I am taking nine units now and am going to sign up for six more units this spring and six more in the summer. So I'll be busy. I also have to earn some spending money for when I move down. My father said he would pay my tuition. I am so grateful to him. I still have a lot of work and then a lot of planning to do. But I'm looking forward to this next part of my life. I had a feeling that my life would drastically change this year and now it looks like it is going to.

Legal Murder

I gave this speech in class last week and it turned out good. So I thought I would post it here for everyone to read.

Disposable People

America is a wasteful society. We have disposable dishes, paper towels, and diapers. We throw away vast amounts of stuff everyday. But stuff is not the only thing we throw away. Let me tell you about what I call the disposable people. Disposable people are those that are thrown away because no one wants them. I am talking about abortion and euthanasia.

So what is the problem with abortion? Abortion is the leading cause of death claiming about 3,700 victims everyday. That is 1.3 million abortions per year. Over 40 million babies have been aborted since 1973. This far out numbers all soldier fatalities going back to the revolutionary war. 1/3 of people are being aborted. We could have killed the next Einstin, or delayed finding the cure for cancer and AIDS. So why are these babies being aborted? 93% of abortions are because the baby is unwanted or the timing is “inconvenient”.

Euthanasia is not yet legal in the United States but people are trying to legalize it. Euthanasia is killing a patient who is suffering and going to die anyway. Sometimes the overdose of medication is given to the patient so he can end his life if he chooses and other times it is the family that decides when the Doctor should mercifully end the life of the patient. Physician assisted suicide is legal in Oregon where a Doctor can prescribe a lethal dose of medication to a patient who is terminally ill and wishes to end their life.

Duet 30:19 This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

Euthanasia brings several questions to mind. Are terminally people in the right frame of mind to be making the decision? What keeps Euthanasia from getting out of hand? Will euthanizing children be made legal?

We must make sure that we do not end up like Germany under Hitler. Hitler killed Jews, Christians, and anyone who did not fit into his “perfect race”. My Grandmother remembers one day when they took all the handicapped people away and killed them just for being defective.

Our future relies on the unborn children. They are our future Doctors, Scientists, and leaders.

So what can we do to stop this? Raise people’s awareness and vote when these issues come up. Put an end to legal murder and stop abortion and Euthanasia.

But overall we must value all life and put an end to disposable people.

Empty

Why am I left feeling so empty? Why am I so sad? Is it selfish for me to want more? I feel like I'm going to cry. I feel like it is all a big mistake. I don't want to have to risk it. I just want to feel good inside. I don't want to feel empty inside.

Grades

Yeah! Finally all my grades for last semester are available. I got three A's and three B's. I am totally excited about getting an A in college algebra. Hooray!

From The Inside Out

I wanted to put these lyrics up a while ago. I have failed over and over but God's mercy is always there.

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

New Years 2008

This year has gotten off to a great start! I think it is amazing how my family started this year on the right track with prayer. We pray every New Year's Eve, but this year we also had an awesome prayer time on the 1st. I thought it was really cool to be praying. Then yesterday I had this conversation with a classmate. She opened up and shared a lot of stuff about her past. I encouraged her to find a church and other believers. I know that it was a divine encounter. Last night when I went to pick Daniel up from youth group they were still singing. One of the songs was about giving our whole life to the Lord. It was the first time I could sing about giving everything to God with truth. I always want to hold onto things, but last night I felt free. I just want this year to be one that I will spend in prayer. I understand that I can't do anything without God. But I also understand that I have to do things. I can't live my life not doing things out of fear. God, I surrender all. This is the first time I mean it with all my heart.

Looking Backwards and Forwards

The year 2007 was a great year. It had many ups and downs but overall I learned a lot. My family left our church in January. Since then we have found a new church and I have made some new friends there. I have gotten involved in a small group that is a real blessing.
School has gone okay. I had a easier semester in the spring and a stressful fall semester.
I met a lot of great people and developed deeper friendships. I made a stupid mistake that God turned out good. I entered into a relationship with someone that I shouldn't have. I ended up hurting him a lot. But I think God used it to teach me some important things. There is a guy at church that I think may be interested in me.

The year 2008 is going to be one of great adventure. I have a lot of praying to do about that guy. I want to be in God's will.
I am looking forward to another great year in the martial arts. I love teaching karate. I am starting a new class this year.
I am looking forward to another semester at Hancock. I will miss Brian and Michelle because they have transfered. But I will meet new people and develop new relationships. I have great friends.
This year scares me because I know that it holds many new things. But with God holding my hand I know that I'll be able to walk.

I learned a few very important things this last year.

1. Friends may come and go and guys may come and go but family is forever. My family may have problems but they are always there for me.

2. God is love and God is just. I have realized the simple truth that because God is love He wants to save us and because He is just someone had to take the punishment. Christ took our sins upon Himself and died so we might live.

3. Everything is temporary...except for God.

4. I don't have to know the future. I only have to know God's will for today. I need to learn to walk day by day holding onto God hand.

5. Relationships with people are risky. But I have to take risks. I have to learn to hold onto God as I enter into deeper relationships so when I fall He will hold me up.

6. God loves me. That is so amazing. He loves me no matter what I say or do. He loves me forever. He shows me love every day. He loves me more than anybody does. He loves me more than I can ever love someone. God loves me more than I can imagine. God is Love.